it's 2010

:D another new year's eve with my COOL people
though I didn't get to stay until the key point, but that made the night fine
it's 2010!
gosh Im getting old.
never thought that this happened so quickly
everything just swifted by and gone
whether you grew older or stayed in youth, you wish for something more
something that you value differently than before
so here's the thing,

I met this person, who profoundly made my life better and brighter
I can say that it even glows now
but this doubt never leaves my head.
like a suspending rock that floats in the universe
since I don't see a future with that happening, should I just blew the wish off?
After all, the harm of killing others is always less than the one of killing myself..right?

However, screw the consequences.
I Love the way it is now

moan

depression stikes you like no other

you see birds fly up high, and your mood sink down low

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you said the whole world has left you alone and you keep everyone away from you
you hurt people in the sense of hurting yourself

then you feel the heartbeat
then you realize that your mood sink lower.

you pour out words like scattered blazes,
they don't destroy anything but cut right through

you pray to god please, please, please,
oh please seal the power and aid me with love

two steps lower,

now you feel closer
closer to the inner portion of everything below happiness

what is it

The little devil said, "you should write [hate] on her arms"
The little angel jumped up and said, "nono, you should write [love] on her arms"

two seconds later, the little devil and the little angel looked at each other

now the little devil said, "maybe [hate free] is a better phrase"
The little angel paused.
and said, " [love] is all you need."