sometimes

sometimes, while you were thinking why doesn't the world get better, it just stopped getting worse, or simply, not reacting the way you wanted it to be.
when you always think you are having family, boy, or even friend problems,
you never get a clue about wat the hell is going on around you.

but a quite period heals
you turn around
and you evaluate.

sometimes i just think, why can't we be in the drama
to have someone to read to and some lines to be remembered, or even, to have someone who tells you how to be a somebody.
isn't that magical? i mean you don't even have to go through the brain-killing process but simply achieve what is on call!

you want him to be reliable, but you don't even need him as much in your life
then why the hell would he care being reliable for you?
When you simply just want to go 'home' for christmas, your parents tell you it's hard to rebook the tickets. life sux but responsibility just keeps coming
reality is cruel
even as you get older, you don't necessary know how to handle these things better..
then you ask.
..
why do we grow up?